Laugh and the world laughs with you! – Grant Morrison
I came back;
I realized…that I was going through this and that
but somehow internally…I was calling;
I was longing and asking,
Where’s The Clown?
Where’s The Circus?
I couldn’t focus
because in reality…I wasn’t there.
I posted about it;
I even listen and watch things related to that,
but just not enough somehow;
Some things…I couldn’t answer right now.
– Joker Green
Should I Stay?
Should I Go and Walk Away?
I Can Feel and Sense…That I Am Changing
As I Am Awaking
Emerging
Feeling;
A Different Type…Not Just A Mere Joker.
– Joker Green
For one part of a reality…my reality
before I get back to the surface,
Is remembering about a past
when I did a lot of volunteering stuff.
Sure, I get tired at the end of the day
but it felt really good and lots of gratitude
to be able to help lots of people…like on a daily basis,
I would then be at total peace…and look forward to the next day…but,
this current…whatever,
is not really a volunteering kind of thing
and at the end of every day…I would wonder
about what’s to come tomorrow
like pressures and obstacles…not much about being thankful
although there is…but more like that anxiety and worry
because it would be about fulfilling people’s expectations and wants
but in volunteering…it is in helping those in need…especially real help
and this is something that…right now, came to me
for some sort of reflection
that in volunteering, we help those in need
but in the other thing…we help fulfill people’s wants and expectations
and even though they are different, still…
…it is in serving them…but, that…that ‘FEELING’ that’s so different
like volunteering is the real deal
and the other…people are already okay in many ways
but just have to make them happier in the way that they want to be.
Somehow, I feel that I miss volunteering;
That genuine heartful of LOVE and GRATITUDE from people;
They come and I (among others) help them to get back up
and they go back…happy and smiling.
– Joker Green
Go, Go, Go;
Run, Run, Run;
Look For The Clown;
He Will Help You Find Your Way Around
and He Will Guide You To Your Answers
and Bring You Back To Reality.
– Joker Green
While I Ponder;
I Fall Under
Mountains and Trees;
Like A Fish That Couldn’t Swim;
Deep, Deep, and Deep;
Sleep, Sleep, and Sleep.
– Joker Green
Fun, Fun, Fun, Fun, and Fun;
My Definition…Is Circuses As A Form of An Adventure
because just like any form of ART,
It tells a story…magical, and connects deeply to my heart.
– Joker Green
Hunt…Hunt…Hunt…Hunt;
What is it that I Want?
To be Loved by all?
It doesn’t mean that I would not crash into a wall.
Even when I posted pictures of Clowns and Circus Performers,
people support and people criticize;
It is a part of living…in a huge way;
Still…I AM MERELY BEING HONEST AND TRUTHFUL…EVERY DAY.
– Joker Green
Clowns…Circuses;
They Truly Make Me Happy;
A Magical Child…Running Wild;
Not trapped by the projections that people push onto me.
– Joker Green
AM I Really Good?
AM I Really Nice?
People Say So, but…
…maybe they were wise
because I looked at myself as in…
If I AM Good Enough For Someone
and if I AM Good Enough For Something,
but what actually matters…is The Joker Within;
The Truth that I Will Be Loved;
The Truth That Everyone Is Loved As Well;
The Difference is The Beliefs and What We Stand For
As Well As The Things That Make Us Rise and Soar.
– Joker Green
Reflections I hide,
but I see them when I look in the water;
When I hear a silent LAUGHTER;
It is a part of me…silently helping.
– Joker Green
Awakened Eyes 